feels like forever since the last time i had a mood to blog. turning more and more stoic as the days go by. maybe its a mechanism to make time pass faster; to be less willing to be involved in activities that could risk ending up in getting my ass busted for being helpful.

as they all say: act blur live longer; garang die faster.

today marks the last 5days of my SOL. i should be glad, but this single fucking SOL has burnt away so many things i've been anticipating for. i've been in camp for a total of 13 days already, i've missed Dreams III, and a chalet.

its hard trying to pretend everything is okay.

i'm trying hard to be okay.

i miss going home,
i miss going out,
i miss my baby,
i miss that 2days of freedom.

maybe i just don't want to be pitied. too independent for that. but even so, that doesn't mean i'm happy about being kept in on SOL.

I. Am. Not. Happy.

i just appear to be.

sheesh.


waihong, SOL-ed.