im not sure what i'm even here for, just felt like saying things out perhaps. maybe i fingers are itching to type and yet my brain doesnt have anything of substance to contribute. who knows, i might unknowingly stumble upon some forgotten thoughts? well, i'm actually here to kill time waiting for baby to knock off from work so i can call her. 1am yo. -.-

well going about the week that has passed, asides from bmt, there's the hint that i might have once again jumped the gun too soon about certain matters. but it does not necessarily mean i'm wrong about my conclusions. i wonder how much dispute has this matter caused since it first arose. i might be the key character to this whole fiasca, but i'm pretty sure i'm not the source of it. and with broken information links everywhere, the picture becomes distorted - abstract. too much is left at the mercy of imagination, but by the time someone decides to piece the puzzle, it could be a little too late to start.

i've ever thought of just burying the entire matter and forgetting about it, but a nail hammered in will still leave a hole on the wall no matter how carefully the nail is removed, the wall will never be the same again. but it just takes a little getting used to that hole on the perfect wall.

4 months (specifically 16 weeks) have passed since i enlisted, paid a total of $10 for 5 shaving sessions. looking back, everything seems to have passed so quickly. one moment i'm ranting about how tiring i am from training, and the next i'm looking at my graduation parade tickets. in these months i've discovered more about myself as a person, as a leader, and more importantly -  as a friend and a lover.

well, maybe there really is more to yourself than you'll ever be able to discover. :)


Waihong, out.

why the fuck is the world still filled with narrow-minded people!? i've once thought everyone was open-minded, and the narrow-minded is only a minority. but i was proven wrong. once the opinions clash, everyone hides away, back to their comfort zones. i'm not saying that i wont do the same, but what i am saying is at least i wont do it to the people i care about - my friends.


if y'all have an opinion with the girl i date, then fucking tell it to me. don't pretend like you accept us and then bitch behind me - thats call backstabbing. don't pretend to be all friendly when in actual fact you have an issue against me - thats call hypocrisy.

yes, i've just returned home after waiting 1 hour 15mins for my night rider bus (partly thanks to my carelessness that i missed one, ended up having to wait for the second one.)

supposedly went out to parkway to meet up with the people i havent met in some time. everyone still seem the same, nothing much has changed about them - neither looks, nor mentality.

never once thought that a person can maintain an opinion for such a long time. i might just be guessing, but that's the current impression right now. everyone has accepted the fact already, so why cant you? is it a taboo of some sorts that i've committed? or is it just because we went against your expectations? the world seen through your eyes isn't the same as mine. you have your way of living, and i certainly do not live by yours.

i had once welcomed you in as part of my life, tried my best to not make life difficult for him, because if i were to see him in my life-to-come, i'd be sure to see you there - and not because i wanted to, but because he wanted to. so why not reciprocrate a little and show me the generousity i once showed? the others have done it, so why not you?

then again, i'm sure you have your reasons why you're doing it, and i'd be more that glad if you could share those reasons with me. being kept in the dark endlessly guessing won't get us anywhere if we both want to see an ending. discontentments are best settled quickly and simply right? you've once tried to settle it behind my back, almost jeopardised my opportunity, now lets play nice and play fair alright? i'm still doing this because its only fair to him to not have to stuck in the middle.

yes you know its you, that is if you ever read this. you.


Waihong, disturbed.