this is the outcome of shuhan's attempts to draw me on msn.
thats supposedly a picture of me in a collar button-up shirt.
SUPPOSEDLY.

...and she proud of her artwork BABY.

and i suppose i should be too.

thats me through her eyes =\

Mom says:

not sure if its because i used to scold people for being late,
now my own son is late all the time.
ITS RETRIBUTION!!

nagging has always NOT been the music for my ears,
even though its been playing on repeat for 18+ years.

and just because i have to shit every morning before going to school,
mom makes a LOGICAL solution of going to school everyday at 7am
TO SHIT.
just so i wont be late.

and ontop of that,
if i want to sleep, i should sleep in my classroom for the 1st class
which should be occupied by another class??
like Hello?
this isnt secondary school anymore?
where every class has a classroom to themselves for sleeping?
tsk.

well prepare to see me in school even before lesson starts..
or rather, even before my mom reaches work.
i'll be happily shitting in EN10-3's toilet.
and good morning to y'all.

if this is how i'll be at 29years later
i'll die than go senile.
cant she just put in a tolerant word like
"ok just becareful not to pass your 85% mark"
tsk. urgh..

just because i'm trying to be a good son
doesn't mean i'll become a parents' puppet.
pull my strings and i'll give you a thrill.

=\

this post is dedicated to you
(you know who you are) :-

No one friend can replace another friend.
And you, amongst my dearest friends,
most definitely
cannot be replaced.

(:

remember there was a post
where new words were coined into
THE DICTIONARY?

apparently there are a few more
that have been coined recently
in addition to the old ones:

Dictionary: Marcus (mär'kûs)
noun
Used as a disparaging term for a mentally retarded person.
Thesaurus: Retarded

Dictionary: Gordon (gôr'dŏn)
noun
A fraudulent business scheme; a swindle.
Thesaurus: Scam

Dictionary: Waihong (hwī'hông)
noun
A foolish or stupid person.
Thesaurus: Idiot, Wai

Dictionary: Shuhan (shū'hân)
abbreviation
I Don't Know
ShortHand: I.D.K.

now isnt that simply ENLIGHTENING ?



im gonna love myself more from now onwards

will someone please give me an answer to that?

its been going back and around,
upside and down,
wherever, whatever.

but still, during my quiet times
i calm down to think about my life
and i realised,
i have no goals,
no aims,
no aspirations,
no love,
no motivation..

i'm falling deeper into my own convictions,
and trust me,
my convictions about myself
arent exactly the best things on this lovely planet.

its hard when people around shine
and you're left all alone in the muddle.

Sigh.

i need a motivation.

i feel like hypocrite sometimes.
telling people to live their lives fully
while im all weak and wussed.
my determination is buckling,
yet the only thing i cant help not ignore
is caring for the people i love.
my friends.

i might be mean at times,
or be the evil-influence that looms around,
but its only because we're friends
that even evil beings like me are accepted
and loved.

through and through,
i feel like i've digressed from my title already.
maybe it should be called:
"How fickle is the Human Mind?"

...

how fickle is MY mind then?

unmotivatedness devours me.

Put your MP3 on shuffle, and write down the first line of the
first 20 english songs you hear.
The first line of the 21st song is the title.

EVERY ENDLESS NIGHT

i close my eyes
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
please dont stop the music
i can show you the world

Only you
This years love had better last
I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
The visions around you

Where is the moment we needed the most?
I've been driving for an hour
Every morning there's a halo hanging from the corner of my girlfriend's four post bed
Welcome to the jungle

Just a gentle whisper
See the curtains hangin' in the window, in the evenin' on a Friday night.
Tell me that you want me baby.
Just walked thru the door

I set out on a narrow way, many years ago
I was there
I'll always remember
Guess who's back?

now thats random(:

I found this poem on the net while StumblingUpon
and sharing it with y'all readers
(:

After a while you learn
the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul
and you learn
that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn
that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child
and you learn
to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is
too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down
in mid-flight.

After a while you learn
that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting for someone
to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure
you really are strong
you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye, you learn...

© 1971 Veronica A. Shoffstall

And 'm going to make a new background
as soon as term test ends (:

its been so long since i blogged.
there's so many things that's been happening since my northpole/southpole thing xD

here's the latest pic update that i have(:


here we see poor ol' cussy being SCAMMED by me and gerald. x3
and i think i look silly.

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roller blading has also caught my interest recently!
now im a proud owner of my own skates(:
and a proud heir to the inheritance of more bruises cuts and sprains -.-

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my dictionary has also been updated recently

Dictionary: Marcus (mär'kûs)
noun
Used as a disparaging term for a mentally retarded person.
Thesaurus: Retard

Dictionary: Gordon (gôr'dŏn)
noun
A fraudulent business scheme; a swindle.
Thesaurus: Scam

... Lol.