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» being alone has never been so hard.
Monday, March 28
7:07 PM
i think im terrible at juggling balance into my life. things i had, people i once knew, those who were once played important roles in my life, are now gone. like poof gone. i miss them, really really miss them. i feel so remorseful that i've said those terrible things to them before. but the nails've been driven in; taking them out will still leave holes. this one is probably worst wrong turn i've ever made in my life. never before had i felt so alone and so outcasted. sure enough, i've had a new character casted into my world, but i've lost much much more. losing the latter is definitely not the price i paid to bring in the former; i've just played my hand bad, so how to i recoup my losses? i dont know how to face these people anymore, maybe they've just forgotten about me, deemed me as someone not worth they're time; i want to be involved again, for they are my memories of my youth. they are the ones who i should have chosen at that point in time, but i fucked it up over and under. someone tell me, what should i do? waihong, lost.
, au revoir.
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