yes, i've just returned home after waiting 1 hour 15mins for my night rider bus (partly thanks to my carelessness that i missed one, ended up having to wait for the second one.)

supposedly went out to parkway to meet up with the people i havent met in some time. everyone still seem the same, nothing much has changed about them - neither looks, nor mentality.

never once thought that a person can maintain an opinion for such a long time. i might just be guessing, but that's the current impression right now. everyone has accepted the fact already, so why cant you? is it a taboo of some sorts that i've committed? or is it just because we went against your expectations? the world seen through your eyes isn't the same as mine. you have your way of living, and i certainly do not live by yours.

i had once welcomed you in as part of my life, tried my best to not make life difficult for him, because if i were to see him in my life-to-come, i'd be sure to see you there - and not because i wanted to, but because he wanted to. so why not reciprocrate a little and show me the generousity i once showed? the others have done it, so why not you?

then again, i'm sure you have your reasons why you're doing it, and i'd be more that glad if you could share those reasons with me. being kept in the dark endlessly guessing won't get us anywhere if we both want to see an ending. discontentments are best settled quickly and simply right? you've once tried to settle it behind my back, almost jeopardised my opportunity, now lets play nice and play fair alright? i'm still doing this because its only fair to him to not have to stuck in the middle.

yes you know its you, that is if you ever read this. you.


Waihong, disturbed.