im not sure what i'm even here for, just felt like saying things out perhaps. maybe i fingers are itching to type and yet my brain doesnt have anything of substance to contribute. who knows, i might unknowingly stumble upon some forgotten thoughts? well, i'm actually here to kill time waiting for baby to knock off from work so i can call her. 1am yo. -.-

well going about the week that has passed, asides from bmt, there's the hint that i might have once again jumped the gun too soon about certain matters. but it does not necessarily mean i'm wrong about my conclusions. i wonder how much dispute has this matter caused since it first arose. i might be the key character to this whole fiasca, but i'm pretty sure i'm not the source of it. and with broken information links everywhere, the picture becomes distorted - abstract. too much is left at the mercy of imagination, but by the time someone decides to piece the puzzle, it could be a little too late to start.

i've ever thought of just burying the entire matter and forgetting about it, but a nail hammered in will still leave a hole on the wall no matter how carefully the nail is removed, the wall will never be the same again. but it just takes a little getting used to that hole on the perfect wall.

4 months (specifically 16 weeks) have passed since i enlisted, paid a total of $10 for 5 shaving sessions. looking back, everything seems to have passed so quickly. one moment i'm ranting about how tiring i am from training, and the next i'm looking at my graduation parade tickets. in these months i've discovered more about myself as a person, as a leader, and more importantly -  as a friend and a lover.

well, maybe there really is more to yourself than you'll ever be able to discover. :)


Waihong, out.