is it just me that enjoys hearing about a person's life experiences and feelings? i feel that hearing about a person's life stories allows me to feel and understand situations that i don't have the chance to encounter; as well as understand the very person him/herself better.

the need to get to know another person grows stronger within me everyday, since the very day i deceided to step out of my pathetic shell.

just this evening, when i went down to buy my dinner, i saw a girl that i knew lived in pasir ris. probably for as long as i remember, i've seen her pass by me countless times on the streets, or even taken the same buses to the same places. and for the first time today, when she walked pass me, we took a familiar glance at each other, and smiled.

it seems like a hi-bye friend greeting at first, but deep down, i could feel this different sensation churning. i don't have the faintest clue to what that churn could be, and yet it felt really good. its exciting, refreshing yet familiar and nostalgic. im not saying that i might be interested in that girl, just that this puzzling sensation has given me a new motivation.

this could very well be a new start for me. though regretably i couldn't step out any earlier, essentially wasting precious moments and opportunities away. but from now on! i hope to let lesser crucial chances slip through my fingers, no more sand faling from between my fingers.

chance really plays a cruel role sometimes. just as everything seems perfectly ok, there will an oddity or two that makes the perfect episode imperfect. a bro of mine had his heart broken recently, and it came to me as shock honestly. they looked so happy together, no one would have seen the tragedy coming. just as i had my heart broken before, i'm positive the feeling is similar. just as he said, "this is a freepass to curse, swear and talkcock". i've had my freepass once already, i can roughly understand how it feels.

anyhow, dude if you see this, midnight talkcock meet-ups are readily available.

i think i can end the post here and now. hope life bears many fruits of pleasant surprises for me in time to come. and that me and my bros grow stronger and find our special ones soon. well except for 2 of them.
L.O.L.

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