i wonder if i, out of all others who used to be insensitive, have learnt to read and respond to others' emotions? i don't know if its working out the right way, or if its even working at all, but i know i'm trying my very best to be even a little more sensitive than i was before. yes, i might still be a prick sometimes, being unable to read moods and all, i am giving myself a chance to change this side of me.

and even after being able to read moods, i want to be able to respond to moods. to respond approriately to moods. is it the insecurities i have about myself that prevents my actions? or could it be a natural disablity to do so? i'm guessing its the former. i've often wonder about people's opinions regarding me. times when a person glances at me, i get the feeling that he or she is forming an assumption about me. even more so for people whom i already am familiar with. more and more impressions are made, more and more assumptions are formulated. its in times like those that i wished i could read their minds and see what the world sees Waihong as.

my thoughts are running amok again, with the assumptions i've made on the issues that have been happening around me recently. now more than ever i want them to be affirmed; or disproved as a matter of fact. assumptions are intense negative energies that motivate the (my) mind to run wild. they challenge the scales of logic and common sense, at the same time convincing the host mind to do stupid things.

i wonder what have my asumptions made me do?

You oughta know
Tonight is the night to let it go
Put on a show
I wanna see how you lose control
So leave it behind
'Cause we have a night to get away
So come on and fly with me
As we make our great escape
-Down, Jay Sean

Arts Leadership Camp in the morning, gotta catch some sleep.
Waihong, out.