it might be just melodrama, but i'm starting to feel the "argh" of graduating.

the GEM 5 concert might have marked my last event as a Production Crew crew. as the concert drew to a close, while all the dancers rejoiced, the audience applauded, my heart sank to my feet.

this really is the end.

and as i walked home at night, a song come onto my playlist, Aerosmith's I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing. listening to the chorus, the lyrics flashed through my mind, their meaning struck deep into my heart.

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you
And I don't wanna miss a thing

yes, it almost seems to be expressing out how much i do not want to leave PC. i dont want to just graduate and part from PC as if it was meant to happen. i'm certainly certain that i will miss PC to no end, the simple times where everyone could just gather in a circle and talkcock. and of course not forgetting the taupoks.

it might feel a little childish, but i wish poly life could be a little longer. a little more time to play, to soak up the experiences. a little more time for me to stay in PC.

sometimes i wonder if it was me who helped cultivate PC to its current "splendor"; or was it PC that nutured me to who i am right now. its definitely feels like a nuturing attachment to the club and its members. though i know i will always be welcomed back, i do not even want to leave at all.

even typing this post brings me to the verge of tears. juniors might think its an overreaction, but try putting yourself in my shoes.

it is a place of acceptance to me, where the people i meet and the things i do are appreciated and appreciative.
it is a place of learning how to grow up and meet life on the edge.
it is a place i love and was loved.
it is a place i cannot bear to part from.

alright my nose is getting mysteriously runny, i shall end here and leave you all with the song that started all this emotion.