can't.. sleep..

must be something bothering me.


admittedly there has been quite a bit of drama happening outside my social circle.

the drama is probably first of its kind in my coming 20years of living.

and damn, its draining me away.

i'm losing whatever motivation i once had.


just this evening/night i stoned quite few moments already.

all because of you.

and i am reaping what i sowed, some many years back.

its until now i finally understood what is meant by you reap what you sow.

but is it too late to be asking for a miracle?


tell me somebody: to move, or not to move?

although there already has been a rejected opinion of to move.

am i too passive for my own good?

will i ever get out of my own wormhole?

swim! Waihong swim!


i need a direction, and indication, that i am passing the right judgement.

that i am making the right decisions for my life.

saying that, i believe i will have to force myself to bed.

mundane life begins in the aftermoon again.


hopefully i'll still be able to smile sincerely.

i'm too emotional for my own good.