will someone please give me an answer to that?

its been going back and around,
upside and down,
wherever, whatever.

but still, during my quiet times
i calm down to think about my life
and i realised,
i have no goals,
no aims,
no aspirations,
no love,
no motivation..

i'm falling deeper into my own convictions,
and trust me,
my convictions about myself
arent exactly the best things on this lovely planet.

its hard when people around shine
and you're left all alone in the muddle.

Sigh.

i need a motivation.

i feel like hypocrite sometimes.
telling people to live their lives fully
while im all weak and wussed.
my determination is buckling,
yet the only thing i cant help not ignore
is caring for the people i love.
my friends.

i might be mean at times,
or be the evil-influence that looms around,
but its only because we're friends
that even evil beings like me are accepted
and loved.

through and through,
i feel like i've digressed from my title already.
maybe it should be called:
"How fickle is the Human Mind?"

...

how fickle is MY mind then?

unmotivatedness devours me.