where are you my lovely south pole?

i really dont know what to put into the text box right now,
but i just feel the urge to vomit my feelings out.

im losing my common sense,
and im losing my mind.

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whenever i think about you,
i feel my senses draining away,
everything i've heard about you,
everything that i've seen about you,
everything that i've known about you,
fills up my mind.

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there's this hunch
that what i love about you
will be the very same thing
that will tear me apart

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so you say
"i'll be there for you"
but my mind echoes
"why dont you be there WITH me?"

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i know you've decided your path
i know i'm suppose to be supportive
but i hope that
along your path
you'll meet me along the way
and take me along with you

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it feels so much better to puke it out,
altho its only on blog.

i feel so dead,
so lazy to blog,
so lazy to study,
so lazy to do anything else,
but complain that im lazy.

outside's raining like chickens and ducks right now.
and im missing the companionship i used to love.

missing the warmth
missing the emotions
missing the love

im starting to wonder,
if things will always be fine.
and that good things comes to
those who wait.

im inconfident of the way i am now.
Sigh.

我是一位没自信心的小男孩。
有谁会来安慰我呢？
那位佳丽会是你吗？
还是我自己在胡思乱想？

help!

What do i do when i'm falling in love again?

A 10sec challenge to NOT laugh!


MARCUS
IS
RETARDED

(hi marc if you read this i am so sorry D:)