je t'aime,cherie
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Waihong
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yes indeed i believe that the best way to phrase how i feel right now.
for moments in time,
the pain i thought i could endure..
it got too painful,
and i succumbed to it.
its too painful to be there for you,
when you only saw me as a loving brother.
on the other hand, sadly,
i still foolishly pull myself nearer to you.
but never near enough to finally ease the pain.
right now, i've lost you, your friendship, and more importantly,
your love.
i've tried so hard to keep your smile going,
to let you know there'll always be someone there for you,
always a shoulder for you to depend on.
a person who will listen to all your heartfelt words,
someone who you'll accept unconditionally into your life.
i know i've lost my chances by belief,
and maybe our past wasnt exactly the most vibrant.
it hurts to see you never turned back to look,
who you might have left behind,
someone who once played the part of your comforter,
someone who saw you through your saddest times,
someone who tried to make himself a place in your heart.
and now its all gone.
just as i beared my emotions to you.
i wonder if this is the telltale signs
that its better to keep a mask
over my emotions.
my sorrow
my desire
my aspiration.
it looks like the only emotion
i'll ever need to wear
is joy.
farewell
my beloved friend,
sister.
and maybe
i'll see you again,
you'll see me again,
with the right face on.
it ends and starts from here.
today.
now.